送给某人

我知道你现在没有什么上线~

不知道你看到这个的时候

我们是很好

还是相反的~

这个不是你的错~

是我的问题~

对不起~

我想送你两首歌~

同样是表达我的心情~

有几句是我想对你说的话~

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对不起

你说过不太喜欢英文

我不会勉强你去看~

很多很多话想对你说~

可是... 我自己明白我们的状况~

根本没机会~~~

*cry*

我已经把所有话

写进小书了~

不知道该不该交给你~

该不该让你知道~

可是

不让你知道

我自己就很辛苦~

已经一个月多了

很多事都藏在心理~

好难受~

无奈~

忍

我只能这样做~

为了不让你负担更大的压力

我会好好控制自己~

希望这样能让你比较好过~

对不起~

...

28 nov

yesterday night go out with pk giap.

2 noobs ( jiu said that )

because we lost our way. =="

7.30pm

pk giap come to fetch me

he hungry then i need to company him eat.

afterwards we buy movie tickets

2012 for 11.45pm

actually he want to watch twilight

but i prefer 2012

because i waited it so long. HA

he say im so obstinate.

yes i am. ^^

8.30pm

we start to ride

heading to titiwangsa lake.

from the beginning

we already lost our way.

we both dont know how to go to titiwangsa.

actually i know

BUT

i get confused when we at the centre of the town.

we move on

just ride wherever i point to.

and... a blink of eyes

we at cheras heading to kajang. HAHA

so we stop at petrol station.

very bad luck

2 policeman come to us.

that time im in the phone speaking with jiu.

this time im not asking him check for movie time

(because i ask him check for me everytime)

but

im asking him to check the google maps for me !!

im asking for direction.

he is our rescuer.HA

so the policeman ask for identity card

oh my god !

i didn't bring !! @@

f**cking shit

but luckily he let us go.

fuhh~~~~

so we back to the centre of town

i took this picture when we stop for traffic light.

pk giap said he want to go KLCC

but

that was not my target. =(

im obstinate again.

so we continue our motorcycle ride.

we reach to setiawangsa.

what the hell is this place??

i want titiwangsa

not setiawangsa. ==

called our rescuer mr. jiu again.

bla bla bla bla

i forget what he said.

and again.. we lost.

this time the road sign point to

PAHANG

GENTING HIGHLANDS

oh nooo... we must go back.

no more titiwangsa.

a bit disappointed.

but never mind.

my butt hurt

sitting for almost 2 and a half hours.

we stop at middle of the highway.

took some ugly picture. HA

ohh, that super ugly.haha

so we back to cinema at 11pm.

2012

super nice !!

5 stars rated.

although some scene is a bit fake

but who care ! haha

i love the story.

the end of the world.

so i reached home at 3am.

saw my sister sleep hugging his boyfriend

at living room.

duhh.. =="

i just walk straight to my room

lie down on my bed

then fall asleep.

this few days.

update my blog.

long time didn't online.

many things happen recently.

-SAD-

24/11

not feeling well.

i vomit many times.

eat lot medicines

but no affect.

suffer for 4 hours

then i can sleep in peaceful.

25/11

the 5th months of us.

me and cheese.

we only contact at night.

because his hp got problem.

I cry very hard that afternoon.

( not because of him )

so i called kimi come to help me.

she rush to my home

and saw my eyes swelling.

after that

we go for a movie.

to recover my mood.

CHRISTMAS CAROL

very nice.

4.5 stars for me.

when i reached home

i called him.

many times.

pain in my heart.

i want to discuss about some problem.

i cry in the phone with him.

but he just ask me to stop crying.

thats make me feel more ache.

but due to the digi cheap line

the call end up every 3 minutes.

so i called him again, again and again.

then i give up.

because of my unwillingly

i almost done something bad.

to avoid that happen

i ask someone to help me.

in the middle night

we go out and just stay in the car.

so bad, he pretend me to cry.

then we go to his house

i sleep there.

hard to close my eyes.

all things just flutter around my head.

26/11

in the morning

he get up early.

so he come close to me

and remove the blanket from my head.

i awake.

then sleep again.HA

because too tired.

i can feel he repeat the action couple times.

but i ignore and continue to sleep.

because didn't eat anything yesterday night

so he said he cooked maggie for me.

i just nod and sleep again.

after i wake

he playing dota?

i dont know. HA

then he cook and make a milo drink for me.

my breakfast. sweet.

i return to my own home afterward.

my mum saw me but didn't say anything.

after that she said

"somebody hurt you so bad again"

i yelled to her " NO !! "

now i feel so sorry to her.

she is my mum

she know everything happen

although we never talk about it.

hmm..

today

i just make everythings goes perfectly.

not bad.

simple happiness

no worry no doubt

i hope this time will last longer.

to cheese

happy 5th monthsary.

love you so much.

...

♥ my dear ♥

I miss my dear ♥

so much.

wish he by my side Now

and fall asleep at his bosom

that's make me feel sweet.

the greatest happiness ever.

every moments of time

i cant stop thinking of you.

how important are you

in my life?

my final answer:

♥ i cant live without you.♥

...

20 Nov

Long time didn't update.

i feel so relax now

finally history paper done.

and will never, ever show up

in my life again.

NEVER !!

thanks God I know how to answer.

im so happy when I open the exam paper.

Oh my.. i know this answer ! ^^

the most easy part is number 1.

adat perpatih

adat temenggung

hahaha.

so im not wasting my 6 days. HA

and my BM paper.

hmm.. just count on luck.

English paper ?

kinda easy.

but only know how it was

when the result come out.

the 3 subjects is past.

I throw away all my history books.

now i can fly. HAHA

all subjects after the 3 subj before

is nothing to be afraid of.

my sister UPSR result come out.

she have 5 subjects

and she got 5A

congrats to her.. ^^

this prove that she clever than me.

she have her new phone and laptop soon.

Im JEALOUS. indeed. HA

anyway I ask her to treat me a movie.

im a bad sister. wuu~~

they going out celebrate today

I didn't join them due to my toothache.

need to eat porridge.

how pity i am. T.T

hate it.

cheese

i just wanted you to know

i really miss you.

why every time something will go wrong?

and we will play cold war?

can everything back to normal?

im so sorry.

and i say this from bottom of my heart.

SPM

still goes on.

2012

wait for me !!! ^^

...

♥my beloved cheese♥

Lets see...

how long didn't I write blog?

hmm.. few days.

im busy preparing for my exam.

study

study

and

STUDY !!

ouhh.. im going crazy.

finish reading history

form 4 & 5 text books

in six days.

can I memories all that until exam?

i really dont know. HA

but unless I really work hard for it.

i wont regret although IF i fail.

today is my dear cheese birthday

so sad that I cant celebrate with him. =(

the stupid exam, destroy my plan.

but nevermind, he say its okey~~♥

so just wish my dear happy birthday~~

Love you so much. ^^

♥_♥_♥_♥_♥_♥

Graduation Day [photo]

LoL

so many photos.

see it 1 by 1 if you interested.

photos at here is got my face. HA

ignore it if its look ugly.

because not enough time

so we all in hurry.

more photo on facebook.

i'll upload soon.

thanks for viewing. ^^

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